After all the busy-ness and excitement of having 3 home showings yesterday, it's been a big let down that today is absolutely dead quiet. I had this big long whiney blog post all typed out. Not going to post it. I don't like feeling like this and it will pass. Let's just sum it up that I am tired. So tired of feeling all my life like there is some invisible force just trying to drag me down and keep me from getting ahead with anything in life. Anytime I do get a little bit ahead or in the right direction, it's like "Oh no! you aren't worthy of that kind of life or success. Get back down here!"
After dealing with the devastation of DH's family betrayal, then DH's health and bankruptcy, we decided to be content with where we are here. Put a lot of money into our home the next few years to make it nice and a place we didn't mind calling home and now we can't even have that. We didn't ask for 3 years of drug dealers, drug addicts and criminals to invade our life and make our home pretty much worthless, not to mention unsafe.
I'm just tired of it all and having a bad day :(
You're allowed to feel like that and just elf indulge the self pity. Then get a good sleep because being tired makes things seem even worse. I'm typing this to myself, who is immersed in a tired self pity party of my own tonight. We can only keep plugging along, and hope something turns in the right direction.
ReplyDeletePity parties are no fun. Even when I am having one, I'm still trying to find some bright spot. Or I just sleep - when I'm stressed I just want to sleep. Thanks for commenting, I'll check out your blogs :)
DeleteI'm sorry. I hope your house sells soon and you can move forward. I can't imagine living among drug dealers and drug addicts.
ReplyDeleteI hope so too. A person can only take so much. It's just so frustrating that even when we say we give up, let's move and get away from this, we can't even seem to be able to do that. Blah!
DeleteOh no. Trying to sell and build your own house is exhausting. So many ups and downs. I'm sure you're wiped out from it all. The process is so frustrating.
ReplyDeleteI hope today is better for you.
Take care, Monica
Thanks Monica. It's a huge roller coaster and I'm starting to feel like I can't do it. Hopefully we'll get some good news soon.
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