After all the busy-ness and excitement of having 3 home showings yesterday, it's been a big let down that today is absolutely dead quiet. I had this big long whiney blog post all typed out. Not going to post it. I don't like feeling like this and it will pass. Let's just sum it up that I am tired. So tired of feeling all my life like there is some invisible force just trying to drag me down and keep me from getting ahead with anything in life. Anytime I do get a little bit ahead or in the right direction, it's like "Oh no! you aren't worthy of that kind of life or success. Get back down here!"
After dealing with the devastation of DH's family betrayal, then DH's health and bankruptcy, we decided to be content with where we are here. Put a lot of money into our home the next few years to make it nice and a place we didn't mind calling home and now we can't even have that. We didn't ask for 3 years of drug dealers, drug addicts and criminals to invade our life and make our home pretty much worthless, not to mention unsafe.
I'm just tired of it all and having a bad day :(